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I wish I had a solid reason for deciding to do a morning of Self-Portraits.  I don’t.  If I were smart, I would bullshit the readers.  The SP idea would have popped up and then I would craft a reason to write a post behind this idiotic idea.  So let’s pretend I did.  Here’s my bullshit reason:

I wanted to share the real Me with the world.  The Me before the joys and frustration of motherhood are etched on my skin.  The Me before I apply make-up and comb my hair the way society tells us Women should do.  The Me that I am comfortable with.  The Me that is so naked and raw it could only be my truest self.

But that’s bullshit.  You’ve fallen for or read that crap a million times.  Reading some version of the above BS, you’ve wondered why you aren’t that comfortable as the blogger/photographer/woman/man.  So I won’t feed you that.
Truthfully, I just needed an idea for a Morning post and sitting in front of the camera first thing in the morning didn’t seem that difficult.  For me, a morning SP is just as difficult as an afternoon or evening SP.  Most people don’t enjoy SP’s, minus Tiffani, but she’s forced herself to practice.  But I’m like most people, I hate doing SP’s.  Scratch that.  I hate sharing SP’s.  I don’t want anyone thinking that by me sharing a SP, I think I’m better/hotter/more confident than anyone.  I’m not comfortable with putting my face out there.  Seeing my face online is like hearing my voice.  It’s shocking.
But you want to know something?
I discovered that sharing a Morning SP is slightly easier.  I wasn’t awake enough to worry about how I would look in the camera.  I wasn’t aware enough to figure out how to craft a SP.  All I had to do is sit down and snap.  I knew or hoped that the readers’ expectations would be low because I just rolled out of bed.  No need to worry about what my hair looked like because I just got out of bed.  Bags under my eyes?  Of course, you see them.  I just got out of bed!  Dirty hair.  Plus I can tell my roots need to be touched up when I have to wash it every day.  Check it out.  You know I should be washing it every day.  In all of the photos, I’m wearing the same shirt I did the day before.  If you hung out with me, you’d realize I sleep in the shirt I wear the day before (after I get home from work).  In two of the shots, the shirt is the same.  Plus on the next day it’s inside-out (figure it out what happened).  When I don’t work out of the house, some days I might wear the same shirt twice.  Don’t judge.  You wish you could.  The dog appears because all she wants is love and she demands it when I sit still.  Which is only in the mornings.  Exhaustion hasn’t been erased yet and coffee is usually near.  That’s me in the mornings.  You’ve got Me.  Not trying to prove anything or trying to self-actualize.  It’s me being lazy.  I honestly needed a post and this turned out to be the easiest thing I could do.  I guess the real Me is easy.

Shit…

I guess I did get a little crunchy.

Or whorish depending on your interpretation the word “easy”.

Want to try it?  Test out my theory if the morning SP is easier.  Tell me if I’m right or wrong.  If you’re brave enough or easy enough, post a link in the comments.  One person has to be crunchy enough to take this challenge.

Or whore enough.

Which do you want to be?

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  1. Kate #
    March 6, 2012

    This is great. Now, if I could only get my SP’s to come out looking as sharp as your’s . . . But then my morning hair would make a 1980’s punk rocker’s hair look nice and tidy.

    • March 6, 2012

      Come on. Show me that punk hair! Please…

  2. March 6, 2012

    yep. i am greasy headed & puffy eyed. be glad i got dressed first.
    morning

    • March 6, 2012

      Love it! I knew you’d play. Oxoxo

  3. March 6, 2012

    Crunchy whore? Will do this tomorrow – read it when already at work. Resolved, though, do this tomorrow.

  4. joelynnej #
    March 6, 2012

    I’m WHORE ENOUGH!!!! I love how you’re redefining womanhood here Erika. 😉

    • March 6, 2012

      Redefining with every waking breath…

  5. March 6, 2012

    Morning SPs are easier? I call bullshit. I tried. It was harder. Different strokes, I guess.

    This post of yours is ballsy as hell. Hats off to you, chica.

    • March 6, 2012

      Show me you balls, Ms. Carmen… 😉

  6. March 6, 2012

    omg could you imagine what an awesome collage you’d have after a year of morning SP’s?! I’m kinda in love with this post. A lot. But that’s cuz I’m a whore for SP’s, you called it. Morning ones are a little rough for me, I think this is my first–thank the lord instagram has a black and white filter…

    • March 6, 2012

      Let’s not get crazy, but I could totally imagine that happening. Aww crap. I did not just agree to a project. I did not!

      • March 6, 2012

        uh, yeah, I’m pretty sure you just did! Ha! In Your FACE!!!! Best project ever…the individual days would suck but the overall effect of a years worth of mornings would ROCK!

  7. Laura #
    March 6, 2012

    it’s the greasy bed head hair of mine i have a hard time embracing.
    and that i that i also sleep in the shirt i wore during the day…usually.
    there. i just admitted it. tomorrow i’ll photograph it for ya…get excited!!

    • March 6, 2012

      Yay!! In the same shirt, I hope.

  8. Jill #
    March 6, 2012

    Maybe I’ll snap an “official” one this weekend . . . because by the time I’m near a camera, I’m full-on work with hair and make-up. Oddly enough not with pants . . . go figure.

    • March 7, 2012

      No pants makes sense. Good luck this week. Put your pants on one leg at time.

  9. March 7, 2012

    Love it! My SP is with my phone so not as AWESOME as yours! Enjoying overexposed and underdeveloped so far. Great Job ladies.

    http://kerirussellhughesphotography.blogspot.com/2012/03/to-do.html

  10. March 7, 2012

    i even get strange looks from the dog in the morning…come on…do i really look that bad? truth be told, hell yes! depending on what i’ve been dreaming about all night…well, that dictates the amount of bed head i wake up with…and i certainly don’t look like i used to when i was younger…and i’m trying to embrace that….thank god i don’t look like i did when i drank…that was some scary shit! you miss erika, rock! x

    • March 8, 2012

      Awww, thanks. It was fun. Maybe when I get bored with the 365, I’ll do a Morning SP. Maybe…

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