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by Laura Yurs

“Tell me about yourself.”  My whole life I never know what to say to that statement.  I usually stammer, “I…I….” and look down at the floor.  Then I mutter, “uh, well….” and then I feel it coming on…heat rising to my face….blushing ensues.  My mind goes completely blank and I can barely remember my name.  I’m an introvert through and through.  “Still waters run deep.” This describes my mind perfectly.  One of the reasons I said yes to the O+U ladies was that I knew it would push me WAY BEYOND my comfort level and that’s exactly where I needed to go.

This month we’re talking ME, ME, ME.  Like most of these posts, I’ve avoided it until the last minute because it scares the hell out of me.  “Tell me about yourself.”  I’ve been stammering and staring at the floor for days.  Yesterday, I pulled out the camera and started shooting randomly around the house and, thus, I’m giving you a random assortment of things about me.  Don’t judge.  Or rather, do!  I don’t care.  That’s something new for me.  I’m an incredibly sensitive soul.  However, the last couple of weeks I’ve noticed a shift deep within my core.  I’m still a sensitive soul…I’ll go to my grave a sensitive soul, but I don’t care so much about being judged.  If you need to criticize to feel better about yourself, go right ahead.  No matter.  These days I’m making choices that I feel strongly about and I don’t need to justify them to anyone.

I like Yo Yo Ma.  I do.  Butterfly’s Day Out is my fave.  Also?  I feel a tremendous sense of nostalgia for this theme song.  I’m curious…oh so curious.  I’ve a million things I want to do, learn, see, hear, travel to, etc.  I have endless projects underway and feel panicky sometimes that there won’t be enough time to experience all of these things.  Next week I turn 37!   Woot!  I wear very little (if any) make up.  Lip gloss.  MAYBE mascara.  My hair is nearly grown out.  I’ll be honest…these days I’m noticing the fine lines and gray hairs in the mirror, but my smile is still the same.  And you know what?  I’m at peace with the fine lines and gray hairs, really.  Signs of a life well lived.  I’ve decided not to color my hair, but to wear it like a badge of honor!  Hell yes!

I recently became a great auntie!!  I’m the last of five children…an “oops!” baby, if you will.  My oldest brother is 20yrs older than me and I was 5 when his first child (my niece) was born.  I adored her when I was five and I adore her even more today.  This little guy is blessed to have such an amazing mama.  

I love coffee in the morning.  And woolen mittens.

I need to mourn this train table and then find another home for it.  The kids have not played with it in years.  And yet, I feel weepy at the thought of parting with it.  At Halloween this year, I made giant spiders out of styrofoam balls and pipe cleaners and pretended like they were attacking the town.  See below.  The kids laughed really hard and then just sort of stood their looking at me.  It was awkward.    

I’m obsessed with globes.  I used to have several and then gave them away when I decided to be a “grown up.”  The hell was I thinking?!  Now I’m on a quest to add more to our home.

I love to wander our yard in the morning savoring the light and the details.

I bought skinny jeans and boots this year.  I bought them, even though I feel self conscious about my body.  I’m embracing it.  All of it.

I’m slowly learning to play the piano along with the kids.  I’m lusting after a Ukelele.

I leave this one picture crooked on purpose.  In part, because it seems futile to keep straightening it, but also because it’s become a great reminder that life does not need to be perfect.  

Lo siento, pero estoy aprendiendo español todavía.  Por favor, hable más despacio. (I’m sorry, I am still learning Spanish.  Please, speak slower.)

I’m learning to shoot film and loving it!  My three faves below.

These Pantone journals make my heart skip a beat!  I’m hoping to have my Christmas stockings stuffed full of these.  I started keeping a gratitude journal at the beginning of the year.  Do I write in it every day?  Child, please.  No.  I do not.  I have written quite a bit, though.  Nothing deep or detailed…just little things.  When my husband’s grandmother died, we went home for the funeral and found she’d made each of the grandchildren a package: photo album, letter to them, various assortment of things she’d kept for them over the years…  All of us sat around her bedroom reading and laughing…crying…remembering and I thought it was the most brilliant idea of hers….a gift to all of us.  I vowed to do the same for my children.  Years and years from now, I want my kids to have boxes of brightly colored Pantone journals sharing how much I loved them and important things to remember: “Today, while walking in the woods, you held my hand and it made my day.”    

I bought these blocks for the kids years ago.  They kinda sorta like them.  I adore them.  I bought two sets and play with them long after the kids have gotten bored and wandered off….

I’m convinced that even after the kids grow up and leave home…we’ll still have a play room.  

I’ve seen both of these movies 1,000 times.  Also, You’ve Got Mail, Stranger Than Fiction, The Life Aquatic, The Royal Tenenbaums, and Monty Python the Holy Grail.  Good stuff.

Speaking of movies, Friday nights are dedicated to family movies and this has become the kid’s favorite.  My son thinks Fozzy Bear is hysterical.

I’m obsessed.  Both with these cans and with colored pencils.  

We are an Uno family.So there you go.  A random assortment of Laura Louise!  I’m blushing.

Now your turn.  Tell me something about yourself!  One thing…I’m all ears and an open heart.

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  1. November 15, 2012

    I am wearing my first pair of skinny jeans and boots TODAY! Despite the fact that I had to go UP a size to get them. I have globes, and want more. I am the youngest of 6 and my oldest brother is 14 years older than me, and I am a great aunt to 2 children! My hair is almost grown out too (but I actually am thinking of some little highlights/coloring, why not?! just for fun, not to look younger!). I will turn 41 this winter.

    All this is just to say — I love getting to know you Laura Louise! Oh someday coffee and mitts in person!

    • lifeineden #
      November 15, 2012

      oh and I says I’m the oopps kid too! Catholic parent and closest sibling is five years older!

  2. bethanypetrik #
    November 15, 2012

    I bout my first pair of skinniest in 2006, before they were cool. I also was 19, an no stranger to wearing weird thrift store clothes that I thought were awesome. The first time my sister saw them she made fun of me for hours. The next year she got her first pair and haven’t worn any other kind since. I don’t wear make up except for dates and nights out, and sometimes not even then. I’m obsessed with photography, and when I get the chance to talk about it with someone else in person my day automatically gets 10 times better. I love those cans too. I want to color my hair, teal, partly because I want to hold on to a bit of my youth and tenacity because even though I’m only 25, most people assume I’m 35.

  3. Jeanne #
    November 15, 2012

    I love your blog today. So many thoughts to share. But feel you forgot a few things including your impish smile and teehee laugh. It is great that you so totally embrace today but yet plan fully for tomorrows. And BTW – I am also an oops caboose. My oldest sister was 15 when I was born and I am #6 with a gap of 7 years between my next closest sibling. I was the only AUNT in 3rd which I thought was cool. My great nieces and nephews are the ages of my own kids now.

    Keep writing and keep shooting Laura – I love it and feel like I get an unexpected gift when I catch an insight to your thoughts and visions. Jeanne

    • lifeineden #
      November 15, 2012

      love that — oops caboose! perfect!

  4. kate #
    November 15, 2012

    I love, love, love the spiders on the train table. You gotta keep it so maybe you can add other attackers every now and then. Fanfreakintastic! I’ve never done skinny jeans…feeling my pants touch my legs makes me want to crawl out of my skin. So I wear big, giant pants. Once, in SE Asia, we were dying from the heat (we followed the advice in the fucking lonely planet guidebook and took only long pants out of respect for the locals’ values) and had to buy shorts, but we couldn’t find a single store or stall that had shorts to fit big white girls. Eventually we came upon a stall, run by a deaf woman, who picked up some shorts, stretched the waist as far as her arms could stretch apart, then pointed at us (basically communicating that she had shorts for fat white girls). We bought them. The said “JUMBOPANTS” on the one pocket, in JUMBO PRINT. People laughed at us throughout Cambodia and Laos. So I don’t do skinny jeans. I also despise the lonely planet franchise.

  5. November 15, 2012

    Loved your post, Laura. I was grinning like an idiot reading it. Especially the “awkward moment”. I can totally picture it. I miss your crew like crazy!

  6. November 15, 2012

    When I was in elementary school i used to ask to go to the bathroom but would actually go to the library to read and check out books.

    (where can i find one of those journals?!)

  7. November 16, 2012

    I don’t know what it is about that picture of your hand with the mug but I love it.

  8. damiec #
    November 16, 2012

    those boxes from Grandmom – that is one of the most beautiful traditions i’ve ever heard of.
    i LOVE those Campbell cans and that you plan to have a play room long after your kids have outgrown one 🙂
    glad you got over your discomfort and shared more about you here. just so you know, each bit you share only makes me love you more

  9. November 17, 2012

    I loved your post. I’m introverted and never know how to answer that question either. 🙂 The part about your husbands grandmother made me teary. I hope I’m that kind of grandma one day.

  10. Ani #
    November 19, 2012

    The journals, the sweet words, and your children = perfect. I really love this post.

  11. Lindsay #
    November 19, 2012

    Laura, thanks for sharing! I loved your post and would love to read more.

  12. November 19, 2012

    i already loved you but this post puts it even more over the top… those journals? squeee! and those cans?!?! omg. and yay for skinny jeans and boots. you inspire me. i love it all. i love you.

  13. angelahendrixpetry1973 #
    November 20, 2012

    i am so incredibly grateful to call you my friend dear darlin laura…this post made my heart swell, you are every single kind of adorable. and you inspire me…maybe i’ll go out and treat myself to a pair of those skinny jeans, i find the brightly colored ones almost irresistible! love you sweet lady. (and happy birthday!!)

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